HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY , now get out there and PPAARRTTYYYYYYYY see you all next year if I dont feel like this tomorrow

Left alone in this dismal place on New Years eve night
Forgotten by the ones I thought cared of my plite,
Not knowing what's to become of my insignificant soul
Fearing I might never recover from this state
Tears flow from my unhappy eyes
And form a stream that flows further away
My heart aches for a happiness that has lone since gone
Panic of this live forever seeps through my cold veins
Scared to be in this place all alone
With no one around to save me from pain
Accompanied only by anguish that creeps from within
Terrified of what the future will entail
Will I be condemned to live here forever?
Where happiness melts and sorrow takes over
Living this life is becoming all too familiar
And the remedy for pain is lost in the current
Each day that passes another prayer of hope gets diminished
Fear traps me in the world of loneliness and hate
Pleasure gets buried in this world of misery
And life filled with joy has been forgotten and lost
Forever perhaps I may lead this life
Where there is only me and no one else
Sadness is abundant yet often routine
And becomes my only remembrance of what life really is
Delight has long since flown down that stream
Where depression and agony arose from the waves
Forever I'll be in this miserable state
For it's all I've even known and it keeps me alive.......

Happy New Year all I just needed to vent