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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (funlovingpair @ April 3, 2013, 00:02) QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 2, 2013, 06:40) QUOTE (freensleazy @ April 2, 2013, 01:33)Do I know you?
YAH!! thats still Perve ...Saturday he called me an asshole ...then Sunday an asshole along with a couple fuck off's...then today he told me to shut up...It's still our Perve, he's getting back to normal...although I may have a complex by the time he's recovered, but I figure he's worth it...even if he's a cat lover.
What you don't like Pussy???????????? I think you have been on the Ranch too long. 
Uh Oh...  ...I'm a dog guy.
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| April 3, 2013, 00:24 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (funlovingpair @ April 2, 2013, 23:50)And what is wrong with being cat lover????????
Ma
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| April 3, 2013, 01:13 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (funlovingpair @ April 2, 2013, 23:50)And what is wrong with being cat lover????????
Ma
. Just that Ive always had cats all my my life, a couple a dogs in there, and got bit by too many dogs I was told they wont bite. Only reason we had the chihuahuas, is she wanted them, and I always gave her desires. Cats are easy. Keep the food dish and water bowl full, litter box clean, they are good.
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| April 3, 2013, 14:57 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Perve Update
The ole perve is well on the comeback trail. Yesterday, donated the rest of her clothes, got off my ass to clean house, and today, her x companion/ part time caregiver who gave me a few hours of a break, a black lady, is coming by, and I will be deep frying some chicken wings. So Im back to cooking. Hard to cook for one, have to re learn.
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| April 3, 2013, 15:47 |
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newbie1011
62 / female
The Shore, New Jersey, US
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Re: Perve Update
Getting back to "normal" implies you were ever normal to start with. I think you need to get back to being the regular you.
It's a slow process but you seem to be doing well. I don't think we just start feeling like doing the things we did before a loss until we force ourselves to do the day to day things until it becomes natural and feels right again.The difference between depressed people and people that are going through a bad time are the things like, time it takes to get back to your day to day life, and weather you can kick yourself out of bed to do them.Anyone I have met that was truly depressed have not been able to get themselves to do even the little things like getting out of bed to take a shower after weeks of what has put them there.You are morning someone you cared about deeply. I think it is respectful to do that as long as you remember to live your life as well. You know she would have wanted that if she loved you as much as you loved her.
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| April 3, 2013, 16:46 |
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ashkats
65 / couple
crystal falls, Michigan, US
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Re: Perve Update
ya, but does thatt cat steal your plate off the counter and eat it?, as for the dog bite stuff i hear ya there perv as we both been bite by the black lab we had , we said enough to the dogs and all the bs that goes with it....
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| April 5, 2013, 05:13 |
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newbie1011
62 / female
The Shore, New Jersey, US
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Re: Perve Update
I am shocked to here someone can get rid of a pet. Once I have them in my home they are here to stay and they are spoiled for the rest of their life. My family has always considers us to be dog people. Especially large dogs. I had German Shepard's most of my life but had Doberman pinscher's,Great Dane's, Lab/Chow mix, and an English setter. My one brother had a tiny little Shitsu but it was his girlfriends when he met her. I now have cats and love them just as much. I had birds, rabbits, gerbils and a few other things though out my life. All the animals that made an appearance on the show "Romper Room" also spent time at my house when I was a kid. (Long story. But it was fun.). I love having animals around. I miss having a dog but unable to really give it the time and care it needs so I have to keep it that way.I always wished I could live on a farm with lots of animals. I think I get along better with them than I do people. Animals are creatures of nature that act on instinct. They do as they are supposed to by design. I love their instincts. I know if my dogs didn't like someone they were most likely right about being cautious about that person.I should have paid attention when my dog hated my now ex-husband.lol
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| April 5, 2013, 15:00 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
Dogs will tell you if a person is to be trusted,..their instincts are usually right..
I had a Rotweiller that hated just two people, and it turned out he was right.
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| April 5, 2013, 15:33 |
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newbie1011
62 / female
The Shore, New Jersey, US
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Re: Perve Update
Syb, you of all on here I believe understand how animals instincts work. That's why you don't get angry when a wolf acts like a wolf.I bet you can tell when something is wrong when you are out riding and your horse acts in a certain way. If I was out riding and a horse was acting out of its normal behavior there was always a reason.We could learn a lot from the animal world if we wanted to. We should pay attention to our instincts, they rarely lead us in the wrong direction.
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| April 5, 2013, 16:01 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (newbie1011 @ April 5, 2013, 16:01)Syb, you of all on here I believe understand how animals instincts work. That's why you don't get angry when a wolf acts like a wolf.I bet you can tell when something is wrong when you are out riding and your horse acts in a certain way. If I was out riding and a horse was acting out of its normal behavior there was always a reason.We could learn a lot from the animal world if we wanted to. We should pay attention to our instincts, they rarely lead us in the wrong direction.
They say the strongest instinct is self preservation...but they are wrong.
I have seen a mother protect her infant from a pack of wolves or bear dozens of times...and it is an amazing thing to witness.
I always trust the senses of my horse when riding in the timber, and it has saved my ass more times than I probably know.
One of the hardest things to break a horse of is the "flight" response, to ask it to turn and face a threat instead of run from it. That takes hours of round pen work.
In my environment instincts are listened to daily,...and I have been told that by dozens of people that have spent a month or so with me, and it freaks some people out,...they have called me" wild", or some other name...but it seems that when they leave here, and go back to the paved world, they too have changed, noticing more of their environment, and what is going on around them.
After awhile they will ask to come back, and can't explain why,...this place and life calls to them,...they instinctivley are drawn to it....and relate it to me,...not realizing it is themselves they are trying to find , in a more natural world.
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| April 6, 2013, 15:42 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Perve Update
Well, the ole perve thought I was gonna whip this one good. I DONT THINK SO. Was in Walmart yesterday, nice lady at the check out stand told me to have a nice Friday, and just hit me, my lady passed 4 weeks to the day ago, and I almost lost it. Dont want to depress all here. Till I get stable, can screw with others, say stupid crap, I need to be absent for a while. Power grieving didnt work out like I planned.
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| April 6, 2013, 15:43 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (perveman @ April 6, 2013, 15:43)Well, the ole perve thought I was gonna whip this one good. I DONT THINK SO. Was in Walmart yesterday, nice lady at the check out stand told me to have a nice Friday, and just hit me, my lady passed 4 weeks to the day ago, and I almost lost it. Dont want to depress all here. Till I get stable, can screw with others, say stupid crap, I need to be absent for a while. Power grieving didnt work out like I planned.
Perve....say all the stupid crap you want...I can't speak for anyone else, but I understand, and don't mind, and if you need a punching bag ..so to speak, direct it towards me,...I can handle a few body blows.
I also think that if you post anything in the past that you may regret, Chazzy may edit it for you, considering the circumstances.....but that may be something you may want to take up with her...besides she kinda likes you anyways.
We just want you to get through this.
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| April 6, 2013, 21:05 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 6, 2013, 21:05) QUOTE (perveman @ April 6, 2013, 15:43)Well, the ole perve thought I was gonna whip this one good. I DONT THINK SO. Was in Walmart yesterday, nice lady at the check out stand told me to have a nice Friday, and just hit me, my lady passed 4 weeks to the day ago, and I almost lost it. Dont want to depress all here. Till I get stable, can screw with others, say stupid crap, I need to be absent for a while. Power grieving didnt work out like I planned.
Perve....say all the stupid crap you want...I can't speak for anyone else, but I understand, and don't mind, and if you need a punching bag ..so to speak, direct it towards me,...I can handle a few body blows.
I also think that if you post anything in the past that you may regret, Chazzy may edit it for you, considering the circumstances.....but that may be something you may want to take up with her...besides she kinda likes you anyways.
We just want you to get through this.
. Thx Syb. Guess I cant leave you guys. fter all. You have been so good. Trust me, I will not use you as as a punching bag, Im too explosive, even at my age, whatever it is today. Yes, I do get angry , want to punch something., dammit. Was out the other day, waiting for someone to say something wrong, so I could neat the hell out of them, but no one cooperated, lol.
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| April 6, 2013, 21:25 |
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Re: Perve Update
The stages of grief are hardwired within us, some may grief differently through the stages, but no...you can't rush through them, power grieve or skip any of the phases. Grief must run the course.
Grieve with us, that's fine with me. We're happy to have you here in good times and the bad.
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| April 6, 2013, 22:23 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
Listen to the good looking, yellow haired , ex-chicken farmer, Missouri girl...
She knows what she's talking about.
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| April 6, 2013, 22:47 |
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funlovingpair
59 / couple
Frozen Tundra, Minnesota, US
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Re: Perve Update
Like I said Perv you will have those times, go with it then pick yourself up and go on. Just like Chazzy said you can not skip the stages, we are here for good days and bad
Ma
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| April 6, 2013, 23:15 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (Chazzy @ April 6, 2013, 22:23)The stages of grief are hardwired within us, some may grief differently through the stages, but no...you can't rush through them, power grieve or skip any of the phases. Grief must run the course.
Grieve with us, that's fine with me. We're happy to have you here in good times and the bad.
. Thx Chazzy. Guess after 7 years of taking care of her, just cant get over it in 4 weels, crap. As I said, went through the same thing 12 years ago. So thought I had this under control. NOT. Never easy. Whiped this strong at times violent guys ass. Was out Friday (Yes dressed, dammit), just waiting for someone to cross me so I could go to hooking, to vent my anger. That didnt work, too many nice ppl out there, lol. Gettimg dizzy now, dont evem want to walk across the room, Ive fallen too much, just got my knee brace off, but still using a cane for stability, going slow, watching my step.
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| April 7, 2013, 01:24 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
Slow and easy Perve....your strength will come back...I promise.
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| April 7, 2013, 05:54 |
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newbie1011
62 / female
The Shore, New Jersey, US
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Re: Perve Update
Perve if you actually had it all worked out you would be a first. Grief is something I have seen with others and myself and tried to control it. If you are anything like me you hate giving in to something that makes you feel out of control, especially if it makes you see your self as weak in some way. I know I always tell myself "But, I'm the strong one. I'm the one that fixes other peoples problems and help them with their issues. I can't have issues of my own." The thing is it doesn't matter how much we don't want it to happen it just will. Grief happens to almost everyone and you just have to face it head on and let it go through you like a train.The one thing that always saves me is I know it will be over at some point and things will somehow seem normal (Normal for me) again.
I have to admit you made me laugh out loud when you posted you went out hoping someone would piss you off so you could beat the hell out of them. I know that feeling well.I wish they law would allow me to just go nuts every once in a while. The other day I was so frustrated about some circumstances that have occurred I felt extremely frustrated by our politicians (That is a shock I'm sure). But this time their bullshit really came home to effect me and mine. I actually said it's a good thing it wasn't a week earlier when I was in Washington DC because I think if I was in arms reach of any politician that day I would have walked up to him or her and punched them in the face and called them a liar.I know it wouldn't have done any real good but I just think it would have made me feel better. I actually need to have a discussion with a senator and a congressman in the next few days and I'm hoping I calm down by then because I don't want to come off as crazy. lol OK I have met them both before so I think they know I am okay but I was and still am pretty mad.But I promise I wont punch them. lol Anyway I hope you do get your aggression out in a healthy way so you don't get arrested either.And cut yourself a break. You will finish the grieving process when its over and not before.
Syb, When people get to understand how nature works it's hard to resist it's appeal. If anyone ever spent time in the woods or underwater just observing it's hard not to respect the perfect force of mother nature. Okay so she might have a bit of an attitude problem, especially lately but you can't really blame her. We have fucked with her perfection so much she is a big peeved at us.Even when we try to domesticate and change the nature of an animal they eventually show us that it is so ingrained in them it will never go away completely.As much as my cat freaked me out when he caught the mouse I have to admit I was impressed that he just seemed to know what to do down to every detail even though he was never taught.My dogs always watched over my family as if it was a life mission for them. That is not something we teach them. They have that inside them.Unfortunately people tend to be arrogant and stupid and think we are smarter and better and we repay many of these animals back by killing them or caging them or trying to change them.We need to be better at working with mother nature not against her.
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| April 7, 2013, 06:51 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
I am no scholar...but I have seen a few things, and there is nothing more savage than a human being , yet we are capable of love.
Our misguided conception that we as a race , are superior over the natural world , has clouded our judgement , so much so, that we cannot see what we are doing to ourselves , the animals upon the earth ,and the environment we live in.
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| April 7, 2013, 07:13 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
Sorry Perve I got off topic ,..and went on a rant.
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| April 7, 2013, 14:52 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 7, 2013, 14:52)Sorry Perve I got off topic ,..and went on a rant.
. Quite ok Syb. You are my buddy, and Canadian connectction. One time years ago, my Canadian cousins visited us in Washington. I got got drunk, threatened to kick thier ass's. But that would not be fair, as there was one of me, and only 10 of them. I run my mouth my mouth alot, change in others topics a lot. Its allowed. What the hell am I up at this time? Still cant sleep good. Even the cats demanded thier treats, once again old softy gave in. But my update, didnt even get misty yesterdy. But the good news is her x companion is visiting me today, not paying the little black lady, but in a different way, lol. But shit, she makes put a long t shirt on, but I flash her anyway. lol. She doesnt mind, we are both cool with it. Now I gotta figure out what day it is, and when the hell Im gonna sleep again. And ya, had a couple long phone conversations with a delightful lady from here the other day. We just talked and laughed. Lets say, niether one of us were disappointed she shared her number with me. Come to find out, her hubby is a lot like me, cant seem to stay dressed, lol. And Im eating better, the cats are only eating half my meals. So thats the update, starting to man up.
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| April 9, 2013, 09:13 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (perveman @ April 9, 2013, 09:13) QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 7, 2013, 14:52)Sorry Perve I got off topic ,..and went on a rant. . Quite ok Syb. You are my buddy Syb, and Canadian connectction. One time years ago, my Canadian cousins visited us in Washington. I got got drunk, threatened to kick thier ass's. But that would not be fair, as there was one of me, and only 10 of them. I run my mouth my mouth alot, change in others topics a lot. Its allowed. What the hell am I up at this time? Still cant sleep good. Even the cats demanded thier treats, once again old softy gave in. But my update, didnt even get misty yesterdy. But the good news is her x companion is visiting me today, not paying the little black lady, but in a different way, lol. But shit, she makes put a long t shirt on, but I flash her anyway. lol. She doesnt mind, we are both cool with it. Now I gotta figure out what day it is, and when the hell Im gonna sleep again. Shit 10 till 3 in the morning, sitting on the bed, better than laying in it like I did for 2 eeeks after she died.
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| April 9, 2013, 09:54 |
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fwbseohio
65 / male
zanesville, Ohio, US
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Re: Perve Update
jack him off and he'll be fine
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| April 9, 2013, 13:56 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (Chazzy @ April 6, 2013, 22:23)The stages of grief are hardwired within us, some may grief differently through the stages, but no...you can't rush through them, power grieve or skip any of the phases. Grief must run the course.
Grieve with us, that's fine with me. We're happy to have you here in good times and the bad.
. Ok, up date. Had a major, major breakdown the other day. But had to do with her cat too. Before her cat was born, she got her a large opaque stoage bin for her room, a small litter box, a little storage container, for her bed, monkey stuffed toy, and monkey blanket, food a water dish. Well, I thought het cat was done with it, so I started to dimantle it. Went to sit for a bit, her cat was checking it out. Didnt think she was so attatched to it. Put it back together, permament fixture in the corner now. Then I though of when she held that 6 week old kitten close to her as I pushed her wheechair home, she wasnt jusy smiling, she was glowing. I just dont have the heart to get rid of Peanuts room. I just lost it. But yesterday, I didnt have a misty momenet. Hooray.
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| April 9, 2013, 15:01 |
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Re: Perve Update
Nothing wrong with having those misty moments, They're not a sign of weakness, just a sign of memorial for those we loved and miss.
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| April 9, 2013, 15:11 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (Chazzy @ April 9, 2013, 15:11)Nothing wrong with having those misty moments, They're not a sign of weakness, just a sign of memorial for those we loved and miss.
. Thx Chazzy. Last fe days been pretty good, till this morning when her and my doctors assistant, who I saw just 2 weeks ago, asked for her. Then the front desk called asking about her date of death. I was starting to lose it. All the little domestic things I planned to do, became so unimportant. Today at least, is pretty well blown already. Crap. But gonna get up, force myself to do something.
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| April 11, 2013, 18:45 |
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JenTX
47 / female
East, Texas, US
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Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (perveman @ April 11, 2013, 18:45) QUOTE (Chazzy @ April 9, 2013, 15:11)Nothing wrong with having those misty moments, They're not a sign of weakness, just a sign of memorial for those we loved and miss. . Thx Chazzy. Last fe days been pretty good, till this morning when her and my doctors assistant, who I saw just 2 weeks ago, asked for her. Then the front desk called asking about her date of death. I was starting to lose it. All the little domestic things I planned to do, became so unimportant. Today at least, is pretty well blown already. Crap. But gonna get up, force myself to do something.
From this point on, today is going to be a good day.
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| April 11, 2013, 21:53 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Perve Update
I second that......Any opposed ?.....Accepted !
So perve...today you are to do something positive...for yourself...and it's ok if it's just a small thing,.....don't go wax the car, or take out the garbage,...go do something YOU like to do...and report back here what it is you did.
If you don't....I may become upset with you buddy.
Go have a selfish Perve moment.Your allowed.
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| April 11, 2013, 22:00 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 11, 2013, 22:00)I second that......Any opposed ?.....Accepted !
So perve...today you are to do something positive...for yourself...and it's ok if it's just a small thing,.....don't go wax the car, or take out the garbage,...go do something YOU like to do...and report back here what it is you did.
If you don't....I may become upset with you buddy.
Go have a selfish Perve moment.Your allowed.
. Thx guys, you have really been great. Her x companion, the little black lady stopped by this morning for a half hour, thought I woudnt see her again till Monday, then she text me at 11:30 am, asked if could come back for an hour, hell yes, I can use the company. Its noe here after 4:30, she is still hare, sleeping on the chair, at the end of the bed. She works graveyards at a nursing home. Shes fun, we call each other names all the time. We even say fuck you to each other a lot. Its fun. Oh ya, shes even snoring lightly, its cute as hell. Her and her boyfriend are supposed to come over this weekend, pick up all the stuff I got layed out out of my girlfiends. That will clear a lot of this place out.
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| April 11, 2013, 23:50 |
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sybianwatcher1
49 / male
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
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Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (perveman @ April 11, 2013, 23:50) QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 11, 2013, 22:00)I second that......Any opposed ?.....Accepted !
So perve...today you are to do something positive...for yourself...and it's ok if it's just a small thing,.....don't go wax the car, or take out the garbage,...go do something YOU like to do...and report back here what it is you did.
If you don't....I may become upset with you buddy.
Go have a selfish Perve moment.Your allowed.
. Thx guys, you have really been great. Her x companion, the little black lady stopped by this morning for a half hour, thought I woudnt see her again till Monday, then she text me at 11:30 am, asked if could come back for an hour, hell yes, I can use the company. Its noe here after 4:30, she is still hare, sleeping on the chair, at the end of the bed. She works graveyards at a nursing home. Shes fun, we call each other names all the time. We even say fuck you to each other a lot. Its fun. Oh ya, shes even snoring lightly, its cute as hell. Her and her boyfriend are supposed to come over this weekend, pick up all the stuff I got layed out out of my girlfiends. That will clear a lot of this place out.
There you go !! just tell me you at least wore shorts...
When you get thrown in the dirt..sometimes getting back in the saddle is the hardest thing to do ..
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| April 12, 2013, 01:31 |
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perveman
111 / male
Tucson, Arizona, US
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Re: Re: Re: Re: Perve Update
QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 12, 2013, 01:31) QUOTE (perveman @ April 11, 2013, 23:50) QUOTE (sybianwatcher1 @ April 11, 2013, 22:00)I second that......Any opposed ?.....Accepted !
So perve...today you are to do something positive...for yourself...and it's ok if it's just a small thing,.....don't go wax the car, or take out the garbage,...go do something YOU like to do...and report back here what it is you did.
If you don't....I may become upset with you buddy.
Go have a selfish Perve moment.Your allowed.
. Thx guys, you have really been great. Her x companion, the little black lady stopped by this morning for a half hour, thought I woudnt see her again till Monday, then she text me at 11:30 am, asked if could come back for an hour, hell yes, I can use the company. Its noe here after 4:30, she is still hare, sleeping on the chair, at the end of the bed. She works graveyards at a nursing home. Shes fun, we c
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